Reflections
Essays and musings on the nature of mind, will, and conscious living.
Endgame and Free Will
Life as a chess game
Chess is an imperfect metaphor for life. And who is my opponent? When I try to picture someone sitting across the board, the image that comes unbidden is a figure in a black cloak, with a scythe carefully propped against the table. The Seventh Seal, except without the knight's hope of winning.
Causality, the Illusion of Choice, and Quiet Freedom
A conversation with the Merovingian from The Matrix
When you think long enough about free will and determinism, at some point you unexpectedly hear a familiar voice. For me, it was the Merovingian from Matrix Reloaded: "Causality. There is no escape from it." He is right — but not entirely.
From "Thy Will" to "My Will" — and Beyond
Why both positions are two sides of the same illusion
This essay explores a subtle place where both religion and naive humanism break down. The journey from "Thy will be done" to "My will be done" — and the realization that neither God nor I make decisions. Decisions arise as consequences of causes, and freedom is not power over them, but the ability to see them.
More reflections coming soon. The path continues.